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Sonntag, 15.11.2020

15 november 2020 switch - fürimmerpunk!
 
* tracks
* hoch singen lernen: wie du in einer woche höher singst! - pepper your voice
* wheels on fire - turning into you /from the record- get famous
* anton newcombe/brian jonestown massacre - maybe make it right#
* tim janis - god rest ye merry gentlemen 1:33
* toto cutugno - l´italiano
* sezen aksu - aglamak güzeldir
* anton newcombe/brian jonestown massacre - do you think i´m joking?
 
* recorder mobile : neighbourkids, neighbour noise,eggmanbus
* W A R T E M A L !
* W A I T S H O R T L Y (hang on) !
* B I R D A K I K A
 
* ... so hab ich das nich...---
* ... öyle ben bunu... ---
* so i don´t have had...---
 
* excuse me please, a little at least, that was not my intention that you´ve feeling like this
* ich entschuldige mich bitte,ein bischen zumindest, das war nicht meine absicht, dass du dich so fühlst
* özür dilerim lütfen, hic olmazsada,senin böyle his etmeni amacim degildi benim
 
* ist das zu fassen?
* is that to believe?
* gercektenmi?
 
* DU MUSST FUNKTIONIEREN!
GEFÜHLE SIND EHER LÄSTIG!
dürfen sie sein?
 
* YOU HAVE TO FUNCTION!
FEELINGS ARE RATHER ANNOYING!
may they allowed to be?
maydaymaydaymayday
come please!
 
* SEN CALISMALISIN!
DUYGULAR DAHA COK SIKICI!
izinliler mi?
 
*eine persönlichkeit von mir hat mich das gefragt:
wie bisch du konditioniert?
wie bisch du kodiert?
was macht dein operator?
was ist mit deinem bordcomputer- alles klar?
 
* one personality of mine asked me this:
how are you conditioned?
how are you coded? waz up with your operator?
whaz up with your bordingcomputer- all cleara?
 
* kendimden bir kisisi sordu buna bana:
sen nasil kondisyionlassmisin sen?
kodun nasil? bas hekiminin nasil?
bordabilgisayarin nasil- hersey aydinlik mi?
 
* an welcher stelle steht dein wohlbefinden auf deiner skala?
* where is placed your wellness on your scale?
* huzurun skalaninda neredesindedir?
 
* die dinge, die nicht in liebe funktionieren- schaust du da mal hin?
* the things which does not function in love - will you have a look into there?
* sevgi ilen calsimiyan seyleri- oraya bir baksana?
 
* warum läufst du immer wieder weg? jetzt bleib doch mal stehen!
* why you ran away always again? now stay after all, once stop!
* sen neden herzaman kosup gidiyorusun? simdi sen dursana bi, istop esene?!
 
* dieses gespräch hat nie stattgefunden
* this conversation never took place
* bu konusma hic konusulmadi
 
* hast du dir die entscheidung leicht gemacht?
* you´ve made it easy on yourself making this decision?
* kolay mi yaptin kararini vermenigle?
 
* die kraft der wiederholung
* the power of repetition
* tekrarlanmanin gücü
 
* ich mag nicht wie du denkst
* i dont like it how you re thinking
* düsüncelerini sevmiyorum ben
 
* ich mag wie du denkst
* i like how you re thinking
* düsüncelerini seviyorum
 
*back and forth
back and forth
backandforthback and forth back and forth backandforth and na and so
and hae? and no and ha haha
and no and ah and yyeah! and no nono and ah so! and
uh! and good.
uhhh ssssssssssssstopp! :D
 
whohou
it takes a while, check my braincelles`labyrinthine-
how great are the tools of (deep)breath, meditate, take the awarness into my body,
focus me on that what love would do now
 
es braucht echt ne weile, mein gehirnzellen labyrinth zu verstehen whoou
wie grossartig sind die werkzeuge des (tiefen)einatmens, zu meditieren, die aufmerksamkeit in meinen körper zu lenken,
mich an dem zu fokussieren, was die liebe nun tun würde
 
*folgendes hab ich wiedergesehen, ich habs vor 5 jahren in mein tagebuch geschrieben gehabt-
" wenn euch ein fokus bewusst wird, der nicht mit dem schöpfer ausgerichtet ist, und keine liebe schafft,
wisst, dass dies ein produkt euerer alten realität ist,
es ist eine euch umgebende "blase"- die platzen muss.
löscht sie auf ewig --------- JETZT*! ------------- PÄNGGG! // xylophon <3
 
entschlossenheit und willenskraft- empfindsamkeit is angesagt- is voll im trend."
- ein liebevoller rat aus dem universum -
yo, das is wohl zeitlos, danke! <3
 
* i saw, ive just wrote down 5 years ago and now ive met it again:
*"when you notice one focus, which is not aligned from the creator, and produces no love, know, that this is a product from your
old reality, it is a surrounding bubble which have to burst. delete it eternal----------NOW*! -------PÄNNNGGGGG!
determination and willlingness - sensivity, touchiness is now really full on vogue."
- this is a lovely advice from the universe-
yo, this is probably timeless, thx!
 
* das musst du gut für mich aufheben bitte, ja?
* oh this you must good set aside for me please, ya?
* lütfen, bunu sen benim icin sakli tutuver, iyi bak ona, ok?
 
* bisch noch da?
* are you still there?
* burada misin daha?
 
* die süssen obstfliegen- sind immerwieder mal meine aktuellen mitbewohner- sooviele sind es nicht, aber n paar schon hey! sie mögen halt
obst und so was ich esse auch, manchmal braucht das zeug dann bis abends in die biotonne und ich lass ihnen gerne auch ein bischen
kiwi liegen..da freuen sie sich mega! manchmal sind
sie allerdings auch alle auf einmal spurlos verschwunden! bis ich sie entdeckt habe-- sie hängen ab am fenster oder auch bei den
gewürzen! einmal war in einer tupperschüssel apfelmus
drinne- habs gewaschen und dann, als ichs später abtrocknen wollte...hab ich eine gesehen, sie sass drauf!! alter! wasn super
geschmackssinn die haben! manchmal ist es auch echt ein bischen tricky mit denen--manche sind so krass hartnäckig oder an den komischsten
stellen tauchen sie vereinzelt plötzlich auf und da bin ich meinen tollen reflexen sehr dankbar! sie lehren mich, noch etwas mehr langsamer
und noch achtsamer zu sein. nich so schnell schnell wie ihc manchmal bin-so ausserdem, nich das ich jetzt schon der sensenmann
war!- vorwarnen tu ich sie immer, dass es schon sein mal sein kann halt ausversehen,ich bin manchmal auch n trampel,dass sie
da auch bitte bisl mitaufpassen-
als ich donnerstag mittag am fenster im schlafzimmer war, hab ich gesehen, wie eine obstfliege rausgeflogen ist-hahha und tschüsss! und
aber eine ist wieder rausgeflogen! mit iwie grösseren flügeln als die anderen. eine is rausgeflogen und hat sich im flugloop aber dann
umgedreht,in meine richtung- es war echt wie im comic-direkt mir entgegen auf die 12 zu, so als ob sie mich attackieren oder mit mir
spielen wollte und is an mir kurz schräg haarscharf an meinem linken ohr dann vorbeigeflogen-sssssssuuummmmmmmm-
ich musste so laut loslachen!
HAHHA SON FLIEGER!!
 
* the sweet fruitflies- are there and then again my current flatmates--sooomany they are not, but some hey! they love just fruits and
so stuff i eat, too, sometimes the stuff needs time until landing evenings in the bio-waste-container, and somehow i let them there fain
a little rest of kiwi..they just love it mega!-
 
indeed sometimes they are all gone without a trace! until ive searched them in the kitchen- they hang on at the window or at the
spicery area! one time there was applesqish in a tupperware- after i have washed it, as i wanted later to dry- i saw one sitting on
them! wwaoouww-what a sense of taste they have got! sometimes its really bit tricky with them, some are kind crassls insistent
haha-or at the weirdest places-suddenly they appear sporadic and i m happy about my great reflexes-not that i was their reaper yet-
they forced or teached me through this being even more ultra attentioned and slower in my doingsss- im too fast sometimes-
i prewarn them always, that it also is possible, that i could kill them by accident, sometimes im also clumsy oaf, that they please
also take attention with me-
 
as i sat on the open window on thursday afternoon, i saw, how a fruitfly flew beside me out- hahha- and ciao amigo! and but one flew inside! one
with little bigger wings than the others-
one flew out, turned in the loop back towards me and directly into my face/nose hey, like it wants to play or attack me softly
i´ve felt really like in a comic, then absolutely accurate transverse the fruitfly flew over by my left ear-ssssuuummmm-
i had to laugh out loudly!
hahahh SO A FLYER!!!
 
* "wo die träume lebendig sind, ist schatten" - eine süsse eidechsengang hat mir das im sommer gesagt.
* "where the dreams are alive, there is shadow." a sweet lizard gang told me this this summer.
 
yo, being human/consciousness
 
walking contradiction- one by one
plea!
ive ate too much these last days..more than i was hungry.so.. i was hungry of what?
when i was little, ive had the first time 2 lovely fishes. they´ve stood at the bar beside the kitchen.
in the first week,as i came into the kitchen, ive could recognized, that one fish layed smushed
on the floor.my mum didnt saw him,stepped upon, when she was in the very early on to go to work.
 
absolute horrormovie runs through my brain then, how the little fish had to suffer ohhh
ive had to cry in my deepest when i saw this dead scene. made myself responsible for the suicide of the fish.
just in this moment, my dad have made a picture how i cried so deeply.
ive searched, for this pic, but i couldnt find-soon my braincells told me, that ive throwed this
pic already into the trash, after one other healing journey ive had made-!
 
since days i´ve felt, that someone is so very sad in me.
ive got disconnected from "myself"-got struggled and dragged down again.
ive missed myself.my smile. had fear, that this will last. cause ive thought it was only my thoughttrain
ive jumped in. a painbody who wants to jingle and stay alive, a test?! who is who? who i am? awareness? ego? whats on?
 
but in my meditation, this thrown picture appeared. i felt it like it was at this moment
where ive desperately thought- "dad, how could you make a picture now??" and im not sure, how my parents comforted me there-
but ive felt, that as a child we was on diverse,awful, urgent situations not being hugged,holded from the beloved how we had
needed in such this moment, and too little to understand, tell, too shy.
they`ve couldnt had know it better, cause their grown up life were much more harder-
and theyve given us just the best they´ve could give <3
 
further in my meditation, weeping,-ive met my "little sad me".it needs the hug from my "own light"-out of the dark-
to can feel,believe, live again finally in fullness, in peace with this big love and happiness i have inside-
ive forgiven myself the past,the thoughts,the feeling of being misunderstood, that i have to love myself.let go.
my awareness hugged me and brought me back into selflove & reminded, what we really are.
 
how good are the tools, which arise when you´re just willed to develop- which are given- music, the coaches which show you how to find
meditation,the noticing of the now and "hands", the balsam of a sleep in a safe warm bed.( knowing, that you have one warm bed, that you
have friends or family who are there for you in worst case, someone to call on, too- beneath yourself. in comparison to others, i feel so
much more blessed, than others. this sense of humility <3
 
problems shoudn´t be compared at all-but if we get granular, we can see, question yourself what we all have got! and are maybe just too
much comforted or ignorant. if the problem we look to, if it is real or just again a fiction in the lovely brain-
HEY!
the knowing, that love is always there- and sends its love in such magic ways and makes you smile,strong and whole again!
 
dont know how much often i have to heal some deep wounds, i even didnt thought that they are some, but life with its reflexions clangours
it like a tabletennisball back to me, to get a better version of myself ouh puh doublefuckhalelujah yeah!
 
that they can heal, i dont want to touch them more than needed, but yeah, when i notice, that there is something
knocking from my heart i dont want to ignore this-i think,my soul wants to heal,show me something- develop to can find the balance just
for living and giving in happiness, peace and as pure love in one-
 
every soul i think has got its own way, which experience in this life to choose-
so but hey, there is always the love, feel it in every now! she´s there, trust! the love is-shows you in the best way she can for you.
hug your "child" from the deepest you can.
it will smile!
even eric came in meditation close to me
although he has got a nice girlfriend :)
as i woke up this morning after accepting this healing "moment" i was back again!
ive smiled
watch it from above.
 
(adding: my dad made a wooden cover above the aquarium after this happening <3)
 
to cry is fine / sezen aksu
 
* to cry is fine
while tears are running down from your eyes
never, do not shame
to cry is anger,crazy hate
is love in the peaks,unsatisfaction gladness
is owerpower grief, short is life
and it is your breath, your breath
to cry in this temporary life
is existence in spite of everything
to cry is thousands feeling which is lived
humanely and enthusiastic,it is a beautiful thing
to cry in your black world
is what you still in love and feel
is to be exist with your all beauty and ugliness
is your existence, your existence
 
das geht viel schöner / this sounds much more finer fineliner
<3 <3 <3
 
*song aglamak güzeldir- sezen aksu
 
aglamak güzeldir
aüzülürken yaslar gözünden sakin utanma
 
aglamak güzeldir
Süzülürken yaslar gözünden sakin utanma
 
aglamak öfke delice nefret
doruklarda ask doyumsuz sevinç
kahreden keder kisaca hayat
ve nefesindir ve nefesindir
 
aglamak su gelip geçici dünyada
her seye ragmen var olmak demek
aglamak yasayan binlerce duygu
insanca ve coskulu güzel bir seydir
 
aglamak güzeldir
süzülürken yaslar gözünden sakin utanma
 
aglamak güzeldir
süzülürken yaslar gözünden sakin utanma
 
aglamak senin kara dünyada
hala sevdigin ve hissettigin
tüm güzelligin ve çirkinliginle
var oldugundur var oldugundur
 
aglamak su gelip geçici dünyada
her seye ragmen var olmak demek
aglamak yasayan binlerce duygu
insanca ve coskulu güzel bir seydir
 
aglamak güzeldir
süzülürken yaslar gözünden
sakin utanma
 
YO ,GRAZIE CIAO!!
<§ <3
 
 
 




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